Christmas

My mom told me today that she'll be visiting me for Christmas!! I am so excited. And actually on Christmas! :) I will have to work boxing day for sure, so that sucks a bit.. but she'll be staying until the 30th, so hopefully my manager will be nice and give me days off during that time or at least shorter shifts.  Crossing my fingers! I just wish it wasn't so far away!! :)

Days off and Thanksgiving

Days off always go by too fast!  I'm on my second day off, and it's back to work tomorrow. Had a good day at the mall with Jaspaul yesterday.  It started out frustrating because I was there to shop for jeans.. and that's never a good time! But finally I found a pair at old navy.  They weren't my first choice of colour because they're a bit lighter of a wash, (apparently medium wash), and I'm a bit worried they're too light for work, because we're not allowed to wear light wash. They're dark enough that it should be fine, but I still like to worry about everything :) haha. The jeans were very picked through, as it's end of season sales right now in a lot of stores. The only jeans that were abundant in the size I need, were the skinny jeans. Obviously, because people my size shouldn't wear skinny jeans!! So anyways I finally found a pair in my size, and they're super comfy. Then I get to the till, and instead of $40, they were $25!! Such a great surprise. Then Jaspaul and I went to Boston Pizza and had a nice lunch together. More of a proper birthday lunch for him that I couldn't afford when I wasn't working.  So despite the rough morning shopping for pesky jeans, it was a good day :)

Today consisted of dishes, grocery shopping (somewhat unsuccessful because wal mart was so out of stock), and I'm making cookies soon :) A new recipe! They're "cake batter" cookies. Hopefully they turn out well :) Also on a plus side, I got through thanksgiving without being too sad! I really missed my family though. I just tried to think that it was like any other weekend.  I love thanksgiving though, because it's a holiday that my family hosts with more family than Christmas. I love when my grandparents visit, and the visit is even better when we're joined by my aunt and uncles! We play the Mexican train game, eat lots of food, and have lots of laughs.  So that's what made it hard, was thinking about all the past amazing memories. But I got through it, and I'm sure I'm a little bit stronger because of it. I'm sure Christmas will be harder, but I'll get through it knowing there are lots more Thanksgivings and Christmases in the future!

Pay Day

So today is pay day!  My first "real" pay check at this job. But it was a bit disappointing. I think I underestimated the amount of taxes that are taken off. Which is okay, but it's just nice to know up from instead of being surprised about it. It's my first long term, full time job, so maybe there are more things taken off. I'm not sure how CPP and all that stuff works. And every employer is different in terms of how many taxes they take off. Tim Horton's barely took off any, so I got paid more up front.  I get paid $11.50 an hour, and Jaspaul and I were calculating it at 11.25. But according to my pay check, I should be calculating it at less than $11 per hour. That seems like a lot to take off.. so I'm a bit concerned. Also I should've had a couple hours of overtime, so it's just not adding up to me. We don't get pay stubs, but we're supposed to be able to check it online. I haven't gotten the slip that tells us how though, so I'll be asking today.

I'm trying not to let it affect my mood. I had such a good day yesterday because I told myself it was good to be a good day, and I "forced" myself to be in a good mood. I don't want this to affect that!! So I'm going to try my best not to worry about it, because there's nothing I can do about it until I can look at the online thing. Also, I still got paid and I'm able to pay all my bills and everything.. so I'm just trying to count my blessings right now instead of complain. I'll figure it out soon and it'll be fine. I just can't put it aside in my mind, which is something I hate about myself!!

Snail Mail

Today is a good day for many reasons.  I have the day off work, it's my FAVOURITE Grandpa's birthday, and I got a letter from my grandparents :) I don't think there are many things that beat good old fashioned mail. It just lets you know that people really are thinking about you and taking time out of their day for you.  And it was just really encouraging, and supportive. It was very much appreciated.

:)

Things are looking up

So things are definitely getting better. I'm having less work anxiety, and it's easier to make myself more cheerful about going to work each day.  There is a girl there that I really like seeing, and I'm getting to know the other workers better as well.  For some reason I'm not completely comfortable around the manager though.. I hope that gets better with time.  My feet are hurting less after each shift now, I'm guessing I'm just getting more used to it. It sucks that we're not allowed to wear supportive shoes since we have to be on our feet all day. I bought insoles, so that's basically the best I can do. But with my feet hurting less, my days are seeming shorter.

The only other problem is, it's hard to go 4 1/2- 5 1/2 hours without eating anything. And it's better to go longer (like the 5- 5 1/2 hours before your break, because then you have less time when you come back) Some days I am absolutely starving. I'm thinking maybe I'll buy a back of trail mix to keep in my bag at work, and just sneak back at some point and shove a handful in my mouth. Haha. That's probably a good plan... I'll have to keep that in mind for next time that I shop.

Well, off to work.

Until next time :)