Weekend

I had the entire weekend off this weekend, and that rarely happens. It was so nice to spend the weekend with Jaspaul. We went grocery shopping and made dinner together on Saturday, and then on Sunday we went to the mall for some shopping and lunch, and then watched some tv together in the evening. It was a relaxing  and enjoyable weekend :) I'm a bit sad that I wasn't with my family having a nice Easter weekend, but I enjoyed my weekend and I know I'll be spending more holidays with my family in the future.

But rather than being happy because I had a good weekend, I'm even more disappointed that I have to go back to work tomorrow.  I wish it made me more happy to endure work because of having good time off, but it makes me much more apprehensive about going back. But I know that I'm continuing along my count down and it's only a matter of time before I'm back to school.

It's officially 80 days until my trip to see my family, and to see one of my oldest and closest friends get married. And then after that I only have until the end of August left for work. I just keep telling myself this, and it at least makes it bearable to be at work.  I keep hoping for the day that I enjoy work, and find fulfillment in it. It's not too far off, I hope.

Belated Birthday

So tomorrow I get to spend the day with my sister and her boys for a belated birthday celebration for both her and I. I'm so excited! I booked the day off work, so we can do a bit of shopping (most likely boy friendly shopping, hehe), and then dinner. It'll be a great day. Just have to get through work today and then off for some fun tomorrow!

Light at the end of the tunnel

Despite having a minor panic about taxes and student loans, I've been pretty good lately. I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, like it's inevitable that I'll face another down swing, but for now I'm riding it out. I think hitting the 3 month mark until my vacation to BC has really brightened my spirits. That may still seem far away, but when I originally booked my flight, it was 7 months away.  And in another count down, I have 4 1/2 months until school starts in September, which means I won't be working at this job anymore. When I began, a year seemed so daunting. At this point, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I'm tired of working at a job where I'm terrified of making mistakes. I made a minor mistake today, and I didn't even know it was a mistake. My supervisor was not calming in any sense, and that made me more upset. In the end it wasn't even a big deal, but the fact that she made it into one made me so annoyed. I don't want to work around this frantic energy anymore, and I just can't handle jobs in this kind of system. This system that monitors your every move, pits workers against each other, and has a fear based environment. It just doesn't work for me, and I've always known that.

So being on the count down makes me very happy. Here's to hoping I'll qualify for student loans.