Despite having a minor panic about taxes and student loans, I've been pretty good lately. I feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, like it's inevitable that I'll face another down swing, but for now I'm riding it out. I think hitting the 3 month mark until my vacation to BC has really brightened my spirits. That may still seem far away, but when I originally booked my flight, it was 7 months away. And in another count down, I have 4 1/2 months until school starts in September, which means I won't be working at this job anymore. When I began, a year seemed so daunting. At this point, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I'm tired of working at a job where I'm terrified of making mistakes. I made a minor mistake today, and I didn't even know it was a mistake. My supervisor was not calming in any sense, and that made me more upset. In the end it wasn't even a big deal, but the fact that she made it into one made me so annoyed. I don't want to work around this frantic energy anymore, and I just can't handle jobs in this kind of system. This system that monitors your every move, pits workers against each other, and has a fear based environment. It just doesn't work for me, and I've always known that.
So being on the count down makes me very happy. Here's to hoping I'll qualify for student loans.
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