The other day I found out that I was denied student loans from Alberta, because I haven't been here for 12 months. It doesn't make sense to me, because by the time I get the loan (in september) I will have been here for 12 months. But oh well, I have applied for loans from BC, and let's just all cross out fingers that they will grant me some loans. The application hasn't been submitted yet though, because I have to wait for my school to verify my enrollment. I really really really need it work out. I don't have a plan B, and I'd really like to get this schooling started. I know I have enough money to pay for rent for a year. School is usually 8 months, so that also gives me 4 months between May and September to earn some money, even if that means going back to my current job. But I don't have a penny for tuition, fees, books, or groceries right now. I guess I thought I'd be able to save more money by now, or that it would be easier to get loans. I'm starting to think that I rushed into this, but after a couple months at my job, I knew I couldn't last there for more than a year full time.
Everything is just up in the air right now. The housing issue, the loan issue.. These are major things that are unsolved. If I don't get the loan, what happens.. I guess I can't go to school. I don't even want to think about that right now, so I'm just hoping for the best. And even if I do get loans, next year is going to be the same situation, but worse. I won't have any money at all after this year, so I have to try and get full funding for next year. I'm going to try to apply for a bursary, which is usually only $500, but it makes a bit of a difference. I feel frustrated, but like I said, just hoping for the best.
Monday, July 21, 2014
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Post Vacation Blues
So last post, I posted about my lovely vacation. I got home yesterday, and today I have the post vacation blues. I definitely already miss my mom and the dogs. I'm glad that I got to spend the most time with them, but it was hard leaving. I know I'll be back soon, but right now I'm feeling all the emotions. For me, time just has to pass and things will get better.
As for the apartment update, things have kind of changed. I went to the office to get the lease paperwork, and it turns out my original assumptions were correct. The notice said take advantage of the current market value, and I assumed that meant the new and raised price. But then we thought maybe it did mean our current price. The "current" part is what threw us off. Anyways, so it's the current market value. So right now we're paying 1129 a month. If we go month to month, we pay $1209 starting September. If we renew our lease, we pay $1229 a month. How does that even make sense?? You'd think they'd want a full year lease, and would give the lower price.. but no, it's the most expensive for us to renew it. I'd rather just renew for a year and be done with it, but now it's all up in the air. It's really difficult looking for a new place though, because no one knows if they'll have availability for September. So we either have to give our 30 days notice when the time comes and hope we find a place... or just stay here month to month. So I'm not sure what's going to happen. I think that added to my emotional-ness today, because as you know.. I have the delightful anxiety issue :) So that was helpful.
On an upside, I made homemade hamburgers for the first time ever, and potato salad. Both of them were greatly enjoyed, so I felt good about it. There was this weird period of time when nothing I made seemed to work out, so I'm glad to be hitting a stride and making good things again.
So we'll see where everything goes from here. I'm trying to just tell myself that in a couple years none of this will have mattered, so it's not worth the stress.
As for the apartment update, things have kind of changed. I went to the office to get the lease paperwork, and it turns out my original assumptions were correct. The notice said take advantage of the current market value, and I assumed that meant the new and raised price. But then we thought maybe it did mean our current price. The "current" part is what threw us off. Anyways, so it's the current market value. So right now we're paying 1129 a month. If we go month to month, we pay $1209 starting September. If we renew our lease, we pay $1229 a month. How does that even make sense?? You'd think they'd want a full year lease, and would give the lower price.. but no, it's the most expensive for us to renew it. I'd rather just renew for a year and be done with it, but now it's all up in the air. It's really difficult looking for a new place though, because no one knows if they'll have availability for September. So we either have to give our 30 days notice when the time comes and hope we find a place... or just stay here month to month. So I'm not sure what's going to happen. I think that added to my emotional-ness today, because as you know.. I have the delightful anxiety issue :) So that was helpful.
On an upside, I made homemade hamburgers for the first time ever, and potato salad. Both of them were greatly enjoyed, so I felt good about it. There was this weird period of time when nothing I made seemed to work out, so I'm glad to be hitting a stride and making good things again.
So we'll see where everything goes from here. I'm trying to just tell myself that in a couple years none of this will have mattered, so it's not worth the stress.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Post Vacation update
I knew I hadn't posted a blog in a while, but it wasn't until my grandma pointed out that my last post was the "38 days" post, that I realized how long it had been. So here's a brief update:
Work: I almost made it to the breaking point. We are so understaffed, and have so much pressure for what should be a low pressure job. Then add the massive amount of drama that occurs there between personalities that just don't mesh, and that brings me to my almost breaking point. Luckily, I made it to my vacation. Hopefully I'll go back refreshed and ready to work again. After all, I have about a month and a half of full time work until I start school. And then my thought is that I'll decrease to part time, and probably work through thanksgiving. But then of course I'm going back to my parents' place for Christmas, and I am not allowed that time off, so I'll probably quit in November.
Apartment situation: We have decided as of today to stay in this apartment. We really just weighed the pros and cons, and realized it's not so bad. It would be nice to have an elevator, but that's just sheer laziness. It would be nice to be closer to the laundry machines, but again, laziness. The tub doesn't drain very well.. but we're going to see if maintenance can do something about that. And other than that, it's about the price. Most other places are very similar to the price we're paying here, and many are more expensive. We figured after all that, we might as well just renew at our current price and re evaluate the situation in a year again. The busing is just so good here, and maybe one of these days I'll actually start going to the gym. So there you go, problem solved. We just have to get the paperwork going and we're good to go.
And that brings us to...
VACATION: My vacation was amazing! I got to see one of my best childhood friends and her lively, adorable baby. I got to see my best friend and go to an amazing wedding with her, and of course see two great friends get married. It was a mini reunion, where I saw both high school and university friends, and it was just an amazing and genuine time all around. I got to see my parents' new house, and it was beautiful. It has such a peaceful feeling to it, I just loved it. I got to see my brother briefly, and my dad a bit more than that. I got to spend lots of time with my mom, and my doggies. This quality time was definitely one of the best parts. We took a little road trip to see my aunt and uncle, and my grandparents. It was amazing to see them all! Then I was able to meet half way to meet another amazing friend, and we had a nice lunch. It was such a packed trip, but I couldn't have had it any other way. I got to see SO many people, and I'm glad everything worked out so well. There were of course tears when I left.. even just hugging the dogs goodbye got me going. At least I know I'll be back for Christmas, but it was definitely hard saying goodbye.
I definitely feel a bit different after my vacation. I think I really needed a break from work. Like REALLY needed it. I needed to get grounded again, and I think I was able to get more emotionally centered. I am refreshed, like when I stayed at my sister's house for a couple days. Shaking up your routine and just getting out of your head a bit really seems to do wonders. So I hope my attitude is a little bit better, and that I can act a bit more like me. (Not the person I felt like I was becoming working retail for the year). I want to be bubbly on a more consistent basis and remember to enjoy the little things. I'm going to start experimenting again with cooking and trying new things.
I'll try to update the blog a bit more, but that's enough for now. :)
Work: I almost made it to the breaking point. We are so understaffed, and have so much pressure for what should be a low pressure job. Then add the massive amount of drama that occurs there between personalities that just don't mesh, and that brings me to my almost breaking point. Luckily, I made it to my vacation. Hopefully I'll go back refreshed and ready to work again. After all, I have about a month and a half of full time work until I start school. And then my thought is that I'll decrease to part time, and probably work through thanksgiving. But then of course I'm going back to my parents' place for Christmas, and I am not allowed that time off, so I'll probably quit in November.
Apartment situation: We have decided as of today to stay in this apartment. We really just weighed the pros and cons, and realized it's not so bad. It would be nice to have an elevator, but that's just sheer laziness. It would be nice to be closer to the laundry machines, but again, laziness. The tub doesn't drain very well.. but we're going to see if maintenance can do something about that. And other than that, it's about the price. Most other places are very similar to the price we're paying here, and many are more expensive. We figured after all that, we might as well just renew at our current price and re evaluate the situation in a year again. The busing is just so good here, and maybe one of these days I'll actually start going to the gym. So there you go, problem solved. We just have to get the paperwork going and we're good to go.
And that brings us to...
VACATION: My vacation was amazing! I got to see one of my best childhood friends and her lively, adorable baby. I got to see my best friend and go to an amazing wedding with her, and of course see two great friends get married. It was a mini reunion, where I saw both high school and university friends, and it was just an amazing and genuine time all around. I got to see my parents' new house, and it was beautiful. It has such a peaceful feeling to it, I just loved it. I got to see my brother briefly, and my dad a bit more than that. I got to spend lots of time with my mom, and my doggies. This quality time was definitely one of the best parts. We took a little road trip to see my aunt and uncle, and my grandparents. It was amazing to see them all! Then I was able to meet half way to meet another amazing friend, and we had a nice lunch. It was such a packed trip, but I couldn't have had it any other way. I got to see SO many people, and I'm glad everything worked out so well. There were of course tears when I left.. even just hugging the dogs goodbye got me going. At least I know I'll be back for Christmas, but it was definitely hard saying goodbye.
I definitely feel a bit different after my vacation. I think I really needed a break from work. Like REALLY needed it. I needed to get grounded again, and I think I was able to get more emotionally centered. I am refreshed, like when I stayed at my sister's house for a couple days. Shaking up your routine and just getting out of your head a bit really seems to do wonders. So I hope my attitude is a little bit better, and that I can act a bit more like me. (Not the person I felt like I was becoming working retail for the year). I want to be bubbly on a more consistent basis and remember to enjoy the little things. I'm going to start experimenting again with cooking and trying new things.
I'll try to update the blog a bit more, but that's enough for now. :)
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