Up in the Air

The other day I found out that I was denied student loans from Alberta, because I haven't been here for 12 months. It doesn't make sense to me, because by the time I get the loan (in september) I will have been here for 12 months. But oh well, I have applied for loans from BC, and let's just all cross out fingers that they will grant me some loans. The application hasn't been submitted yet though, because I have to wait for my school to verify my enrollment. I really really really need it work out. I don't have a plan B, and I'd really like to get this schooling started. I know I have enough money to pay for rent for a year. School is usually 8 months, so that also gives me 4 months between May and September to earn some money, even if that means going back to my current job. But I don't have a penny for tuition, fees, books, or groceries right now. I guess I thought I'd be able to save more money by now, or that it would be easier to get loans. I'm starting to think that I rushed into this, but after a couple months at my job, I knew I couldn't last there for more than a year full time. 

Everything is just up in the air right now. The housing issue, the loan issue.. These are major things that are unsolved. If I don't get the loan, what happens.. I guess I can't go to school. I don't even want to think about that right now, so I'm just hoping for the best. And even if I do get loans, next year is going to be the same situation, but worse. I won't have any money at all after this year, so I have to try and get full funding for next year.  I'm going to try to apply for a bursary, which is usually only $500, but it makes a bit of a difference. I feel frustrated, but like I said, just hoping for the best.