3 more days

Only 3 more days until I'm done work!!! I couldn't be more excited :) Things are just as silly as ever there, so I'm glad that I'm putting it behind me. It'll be a bit stressful of course once I finally realize that I'm not making money and I'm using student loan money... but it's necessary and I'll be much happier for it :)

Just have to get through this crazy long weekend! It's going to be sooo busy. Maybe that will make the days go by faster though.

family visits

Today I got back from a visit to the island to see family. My mom and I planned the trip before my aunt had passed, but unfortunately she passed before we got there. It was a great visit with our family though. There was some sadness of course.. but there were lots of laughs and quality time. I'm glad that I made the decision to go, despite being a little insecure about it. (I think my exact wording was "Are we family enough to be there?") So despite being due to poor circumstances, it was a good visit.

Now back to work and only 5 days left. Then on to school!

New Beginnings

So things are definitely calming down and getting all sorted out.  I'm so excited that I decided to give my 2 weeks notice. I can't imagine now if I hadn't. The way I feel when I'm there, I don't even know how I lasted this long! I really just have a terrible mentality when I'm there, I'm irritable, and I just feel.. heavy. A lot of the girls that I started with, and the girls that started after me that I bonded with, have left. That made it much easier to make the decision. I think it was that group of girls that kept me going, and as they started quitting.. it made it less bearable. Now I just feel such a sense of relief that my time is coming to an end. I won't be making money anymore, but I won't have loan complications, and I'll be much happier.

I'll be heading to see my Aunts and my cousins on Monday. I'm nervous, but happy to see everyone. Even though like I said, it's under poor circumstances, family reunions are always nice.  I got the days off all sorted out easily, so that was a weight off my shoulders.

I also headed to my future college, and got my id card and bus pass. I'm so excited to be starting school in the fall.. I can't wait!  I'm starting to feel so relieved and getting happier and excited. I needed a change, and to get out of that job. I need to refresh myself and have a new beginning.

Couldn't be happier. Excited for my fresh start. :)

2 weeks notice

So I decided to put my 2 weeks notice in at work. At first I was really nervous, because I hadn't planned on handing it in so soon. I had just handed in my change of schedule and hours, so I just felt like I was blind siding my manager. But mostly it had to do with the fact that working would complicate my loans, and some of them would be revoked. And since I would only be working 2 more months or so, it's not worth the wages to have any of my loan revoked. I just hope my manager understands and that there are no hard feelings. Things change and I gave enough notice, so it's not like I did anything wrong.  The only part that I really feel a bit bad about is that I'm also going to be taking 3 days out of my last two weeks without much notice to visit my Aunt. I know that this is just life and it happens that way sometimes but the timing just kind of sucks. But it'll all be fine, I'm sure.

Once I get the days off sorted out, I know I'll be excited to be ending my time at this job :)

Looking Ahead

3 weeks today is officially my first day of school, and I'm pretty excited. I'm the kind of person that likes to be working towards something. I like learning, I like completely things. This has been completely missing from my life in the past year, which probably has a lot to do with why I felt lost. I know I could have picked up a hobby or something, but I didn't.

I still don't know about student loans or the housing situation, but it'll all be sorted out with time. I'm trying not to worry about anything and just get through my last 3 weeks as a full time worker. (CAN YOU BELIEVE I WILL HAVE MADE IT THROUGH THE YEAR IN JUST 3 WEEKS??) I'm pretty proud of myself to be honest! I know I settled at this job, and I know I could have a should have found something better, but I think my confidence was so low when I finished school. But this whole experience will be coming to a close soon, and I have some things to take away from it. I have developed a thicker skin, and I'm learning how to say no without having to have a reason (this is really hard still at times). I have let people walk all over me my whole life, and I let people guilt me into doing things that I don't want to do. I knew that was something that I wanted to change, and I've definitely made improvements.

Can't wait for school! Although I'm not looking forward to being broke again.. but we do what we have to do.