New year

My mom left this morning, the visit seemed to go by so fast.  We got our nails done, had a shopping trip, had many chats, watched all the Harry Potter movies, and I got spoiled. It was so nice to feel taken care of for a couple days! I'm so glad she came to visit, and I'm a bit sad she's already gone. Anytime I get sad though, I just push it out of my head. No use being sad about something that I can't control.

I can't believe the new year is already here! Time is going by pretty fast, and other than making my mom's trip go by fast, I'm pretty happy about that. I'm counting down the months til I'm back in school! I'm not doing anything for New Years, but the older I get it just seems to be less of a big deal. Jaspaul isn't here, and a lot of my work friends have plans already. I'd rather just hang out with people and not head out clubbing, but no one seems to be doing that! Oh well, I'll have a relaxing night in.

Since I'm thinking about the New Year... it's time to think about what I want for myself for the New Year! I try not to do resolutions, because if we want to be changing something, we should always be trying, and not just because it's a new year. BUT, it's always good to write down the things you want to accomplish! Mine are mostly a continuation of what I'm already trying to do. So here goes...

1) Lose weight:  When my mom was here, she said multiple times that she thinks I lost weight. The first time she said it, I told her it was probably just the pants cause they "hold me in," but she said she was sure of it later. So that was exciting! That means I haven't had any major changes, but that the minor choices I'm making every day are making a difference.  One of the things I've changed, is always eating breakfast. I also swapped eating out for bringing lunches 4/5 days most weeks. I've also cut back on the chips and candy, and things like that. So I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing, and keep making small changes here and there until it gets easier and easier. Oh yeah, plus that exercise thing that I should be doing...

2) Mental and Emotional strength: This is one I've really been working on since I moved here. I want to care more about pleasing myself than others. I want to worry less about what others think, and learn to accept when people don't like me. I know I'm already growing emotionally stronger, because some of the things that used to upset me, no longer do. So I want to continue with these things and stop being such an anxious person. I need to grow stronger to let go, and let go in order to be stronger.

3) Be a gracious and grateful person:  I try to be this kind of person, but sometimes I'm not. I am not in my ideal situation, but I want to stop letting it affect my mood. This is important because we're not always going to be in the situation we want to be, but we can't let it affect how we treat people and how we treat ourselves.

Happy New Year!