My Man's Birthday

It's Jaspaul's birthday today!

           Man, I love birthdays.  I love making people feel special and spoiled on their birthdays. Although Jaspaul is not as receptive to it, deep down he still loves being spoiled, haha. Unfortunately this year, I can't spoil him much. I just started a new job last week, and have no more than $5 in my bank account. My paycheque will not be until next week, and it isn't quite enough to cover my rent for October. Then I have a visa bill with groceries and bus passes. So the only thing I can do for him, is make him a cake. And he honestly doesn't care. He doesn't care that we can't go for a nice dinner, and he doesn't care that I can't get him gifts. I will get him gifts later, but he of course tells me not to. So hopefully the cake turns out well, because it's all that I can do for him for right now. So wish me luck that it will be the best cake I can make! :)

           So since it's his birthday, I was thinking about how happy I am that he's in this world. He deals with my anxiety, and always calms me down and makes me feel better.  Although he doesn't always listen to my sometimes ridiculous rambling, he listens when it counts. He ALWAYS makes me laugh.  We've been together for just under 5 years, and he still makes me laugh constantly.  Sometimes I want to punch him, but I'm getting better about this :P It takes a lot to get into the rhythm of living together. But I think we're pros at it now. So putting the fighting (mostly) aside, we can just laugh. Laughter is one thing that should never leave a relationship, so I'm so thankful we still have so much of it.

           I find myself thinking more towards the future with him now. I can't wait to get our first dog, our first house, and the like. I can't wait to laugh with him for countless more years. He's someone that makes me re think how I think about life. He is someone that doesn't get upset about much, he doesn't stress about much, and he doesn't get sad about much.  He lives in the here and now, and that's something that I'm slowly trying to learn from him. I'm so hyper and anxious and OCD (for a lack of a better term) and he's so calm and cool, and down to earth. Sometimes when I'm frustrated with him, I think about everything that he puts up with from me, and I let it go.

So all in all, I'm glad that this man was put on this Earth. And hopefully we'll spend a lifetime of more birthdays, ones that I can properly spoil him for.